This is inspiration for me.
And I'm adding the name Marlee to our possible cat name list. I just love that name and everytime I hear it, I will feel hope. :)

Today was my first room parent meeting! And today there was some sort of wreck or whatnot on I-270 causing traffic to be backed up. And today because of said traffic, I was 10 minutes late to a 15 minute meeting. I walk in to a room with a lot more people than I had prepared myself for. Of course they all turn to look at me. A lady was  speaking. I think she was the president of the PTO but not sure since I missed that meeting. (we are trying to get involved with that this year too) So everyone's looking at me. I'm sure my face turned beet red. I found a chair but of course there wasn't one right there where I walked in. Of course the chair is all the way across the room.  So I have no clue what was said or why the other lady upfront was handing out packets, nor did I know what those packets were. I asked someone across the table from me. I took note of who grabbed the packet when my daughter's teacher's name was called. Then when the room was full of chit-chatting, I made my way to the lady with my room's packet. It was easy talking to her. I wasn't nervous or uncomfortable. I hated being late with a passion! I hated feeling clueless! But she made it okay for me. She filled me in. She even offered the packet to me but I told her she could keep it since I was so new to this and she was experienced somewhat with being a room parent. The packet was money, 100.00 for all four classroom parties that we are planning for the school year. That's our main job......plan the parties from food to activities to volunteers. That is right up my alley. I'm really excited! The lady is named Tanya. She's really nice and seems very down to Earth. I have to say that because I have run across a lot of parents at this school that seem....well.....snobby and too good for those around them.  But Tanya didn't give me any bad vibes. She had a baby with her, less than a year old. He kept spitting up on her, but she was cool about it. She made me feel.......safe. You have to understand where I'm coming from. See, Kensy's school is in the better part of the city. It's pricey to live there and so everyone or most everyone is flowing with money. Kensy gets to go there because she's deaf, otherwise she'd have to go to the school closest to us. I always feel like an outsider, a poser, at this school, like we don't belong here. But you know what? We do belong there. Kensy has been at that school since kindergarten and she has just as much of a right to go to that school as those who live in that district. So usually I feel under dressed and too poor to "mingle" with the parents of this school. I don't know if Tanya and I will become friends, but it's good to know that I'll have some adult conversations with a female face to face throughout the school year. And that right there gives me hope. We have our first meeting October 13. I'm looking forward to it. And how much fun is it going to be to do arts and crafts for these parties. Kensy will love me being involved with her school functions. I'm really looking forward to it and I'm determined to not feel like an outsider.

Funny thing is, Kensy is like a celebrity at school. Everyone knows her and therefor, somehow, they know me. Tanya knew I was Kensy's mom without me having to say it (and not cause of the last name). I guess I should get use to that. It's not a bad thing. Just different for someone like me who doesn't enjoy the spotlight. Kensy's a very popular girl, and not just because she's deaf. She's very likable and very social and she happens to be really good friends with Tanya's daughter Sophie. Sophie even learned sign language so she could communicate with Kensy. That's so awesome to hear!

It feels really good to have something to do besides doctor's appointments and my norm. It feels good to belong, to be important outside the home, to be involved with something. It feels good to interact with humans. lol. Sometimes I feel so sheltered. I'm pathetic. lol

and this one but I don't sing it just love it

I don't know all the words but I sing this one too.

Good one catfever7

My favorite shower song to sing!

What can I say? I love the song!

I love it!

You gotta be fucking kidding me!

Okay,I must admit, I didn't hate Spencer's part but I still hate him and this song is better than Higher.
These days you don't have to sing. You just have to be sexy and talk about sex and poof...you have a cd.

um....hated the video. I guess if you are a guy then sure you'd enjoy it, but it was the same freaking thing over and over...her trying to be sexy and me trying not to vomit. And she clearly can not sing...notice the parts that require more than a bubbly voice, like actually singing parts...she struggles and I struggle to listen to it. Yes, I've heard worse. But I am not crazy about this song. And the part where she repeats higher over and over again, is god-awful. What do you think?

This is for sassysher, for her ghetto side. lol. And it's to those of you who can appreciate poetry. So laugh it up!

 

For  those of you who don't know....

All the names I wanted were taken. After trying like four or five, I got fed up and came up with the one I have now. Each letter stands for a name. kristy, dusty, kensy, riley, scooter, mattie, tater in ohio....kdkrsmt. Now Tater is dead....was my daughter's dog and we have Kyrey. But I don't want to pay money to change my name yet. But maybe one day because I'd like something you can freaking say instead of what I have.

For fionavere

When I went  to Kensy's school to pay them lots of twenties so that my daughter may receive a 2nd grade education there this school year, I saw this little girl wearing pants with words on the booty. Wanna know what it said?

What can I say, you bring out the fuck you in me. 

I talked to Momma today to tell her about Kyrey's test results. I got to talking about Shauna. She said forget her. Easier said then done but I'm starting to wonder about it. 
Closure would be nice but I KNOW firsthand that we don't always get that. 
I never thought things would turn out this way.

I forgot to mention that in addition to doctor appointments yesterday, I went to Kensy's school to turn in the paperwork and to buy her school supplies. I figured it would be easier to buy them from the school since they know what she needs anyways. So the lady is like okay that's 18 (and some change) for the school supplies, 5.00 for pre-ordering them and delivering them to the classroom (I knew about that and was okay with that) and 20.00 for the membership to PTO and 5.00 for room party fee and 10.00 for field trip.I spent like 85 bucks. Not to mention a 25.00 fee for the science room and not to mention the art smock, clip board, kleenex and two containers of zip loc bags I had to buy plus the gym shoes, and book bag and school clothes.  

Shauna hasn't called yet. I remembered yet another thing....recently I went through something really hard and I wrote her about it. I clearly needed someone, was practically crying in the letter. She never responded. 

Riley had his first hair cut yesterday. He looks so handsome! I got it cut so I can spike it! I haven't tried that yet but am dying too.

Yesterday was a really really long day! I got three hours of sleep if that the night before. Kyrey's testing lasted about three hours in which I had to hold her the whole time and keep her asleep as much as possible. Results: she is severe to profoundly deaf in both ears.